September 27, 2006

My 1st post-op appointment!

Hey everyone,
I had my first post-op appointment today it went very well I think. In 2 weeks I lost 15 lbs!!! WOOOHOOO I am so happy. My depression is getting better have not had any crying spells since the last time I wrote. But anyways Susan is worried, well not really worried just concerned, about my water and protein intake and Ning needs me to up the protein. I knew that already and I knew that it was going to come up and I needed them to help me. Ning helped me by setting two schedule a vitamin schedule and a food schedule oh I love when I get something planned out especially when a professional help me.

I also know why I've been getting so sick, I was taking all my meds (except iron) in the morning after just a tiny bit of food well that was just a big no no. So with my new vitamin schedule I should not get sick. I guess I just have to suck it up and take the b-complex I have because chewable has not near as much stuff in it. So in general they think I am doing a great job just need to work on the protein and water NO PROBLEM! My phych. appointment went well with Rebecca, she did say she doesn't think there is anything REALLY wrong but she does want to keep seeing me just in case something comes up, totally understandable. I am just so happy 15 POUNDS SO EXCITING! good to see my somewhat suffering the last 2 weeks paid off my next appointment is on the 4th.

Today when we got back in town we went to Wendy's and I got some chili took it home put some beneprotein in it and threw it in the blender! IT WAS THE BEST THING THAT HAPPENED TO A PUREE DIET! MMM so good! I had to slow myself down I was getting carried away but I did stop before I felt full and it went down GREAT! so happy about that as well.

Well everyone I'm off to bed take care goodnight and love ya!

Kylie
-15lbs

September 22, 2006

.....depression.....

I wasn't as prepared as I thought I was for after surgery. I am going through what my mom is telling me is post op depression. Do you want good or bad first? well I give bad

Bad: I am having such a hard time with protein. I get a sick feeling after drinking boost, which sucks because I loved boost. I made my own tomato soup and the first oz of it was so good. I went for a walk and wanted more so I had so more and I don't know why but I just got sick, not vomit but close to it. So I ruined that for myself. I'm just so terrible right now. I start crying because I'm feeling like "what did i do to myself?". So yeah I'm having a hard time with full liquids and I'm trying my hardest to get protein in but I'm focused more on liquids right now so I don't get dehydrated. Oh and I got my first dumping syndrome, my shopping list said either sugar free or nonfat plain yogurt, so I got the plain and never even thought to look at the sugar I mixed my protein powder in it and ate it up. I paid for that I got so sick, shaky, sweaty, and had to use the bathroom a lot. I can't look at yogurt right now.

Good: I have no pain, just some uncomfort. I am able to walk up and down the street okay. I can get around on my own, I took a shower the other day that was nice, I'm going to take one again today. Yeah I get wiped out VERY fast but gosh what do you expect? I can handle applesauce, COLD water, COLD crystal light lemonade and this organic whole grain baby rice cereal my dad got me just add a little splenda and its all good. But other than that everything else makes me feel not so good.

So I guess I would say I'm about 65% okay. I think my mom is right I need to get out of the house like go for a drive with her and just something. I keep getting told it will get better and soon, a lot of people are eating cheese and deli meat at week 4 so I'm pretty excited about that but then I get sad again because I think "if i cant handle boost how am I going to handle that?" Just taking one day at a time. Okay so I'm tired now, I have an appointment with Susan on the 27th.
Take care everyone!

September 16, 2006

Hospital and Home

I am in the hospital 2 days post-op!! I am doing a lot better than I thought I would be. I could not be happier. I'm going to break it down day by day.

Thursday: I was very scared before surgery, but you know I don't even remember counting down, I don't think they had me do that it was just all of a sudden I was asleep. I remember looking around, looking up at the lights thinking 'those are like the lights in niptuck'. When I woke up I was sorta mad I was so tired and was mad that they woke me up LOL. I was in a panic, and in shock that I actually had the surgery. I don't remember pain, I just remember being very sore, and tired, i kept dosing off could not look straight in the eyes and who ever was talking to me i would fall asleep when being asked questions. So many people where coming in and out of my room I dont remember half of what anyone was saying at the time. I had my mom or dad relay it for me later on. I just kept falling asleep through out the day. I did try to get out of bed and sit down, that was REALLY painful but I did it.

Friday: I felt like a baby, this was a drama day. I could not go to the bathroom by myself, I could not wipe myself, it was extremely painful to get out of bed and to get back in. My cathider broke while trying to get off the xray table I have 5 people helping me I was just in so much pain. Later that night, my drain started to leak from the port it wasnt painful just a little scarey. It was nice though and everything worked out because I had my mom there and I feel confortable having my mom wipe be instead of my dad. but my dad is stronger and can help me up better.

Saturday: Okay so all through friday night my IV just was hurting and pintching, it was just SO painful. I was given ice packs and hot packs, after a walk I decided I wanted to sit in the chair as I was sitting there I looked at my hand and notice wow, my hand looks like a glove that a kid would blow up. It was SSSOOOOO swallowen I couldn't believe it! Turns out the IV needle inside my hand had shifted all the fluids and pain medicine was going into my hand tissue. After a very depp conversation about me behind the curtian the doctors decided to take it out, BUT I had to be on top of my drinking 1 once every 15minutes and if I didnt pee enough the IV would be going back in and I had to promise that I would take my pain medicine orally. Which in the end it seemed to help better. But okay but saturday, I was getting out of bed by myself, going to the bathroom by myself, if I was already up I would clean up my tray, wash my face, I was just all over the place. My pain 1-10 was about a 1 and then a 0 at night. I was feeling great other than some soreness and tenderness on the insicsions.

Sunday: This morning I still felt really good and I was FINALLY able to go number 2 in the bathroom. Of course there was nothing solid about it. The doctor came in along with his student/resident army and said "Are you feeling good? What's your pain level? Want your drain out? Wanna go home?" So about an hour later the drain came out. OH MY GOD what an experiance that is, it feeling like a snake is getting pulled out of your stomach but the most pain was the tape coming off. Stuped? lol So about 1 1/2 hour later I was sent home and yes now I am home on the couch the living room has turned into my own little recovery room. Israel is helping me so much more at home, the hospital just freaked him out. He bought me some books to keep me busy while recovering, Sylvia Browne new book and a book on every dog that exists.

Okay so now I am tired and am going to fall asleep. I will be updated every appointment I have. So that is once a week for 4 weeks and than monthly (oh come on you know i'll post more than that). Take care everyone!!!!

September 11, 2006

NBC 11

Alright I know I said I would not post until AFTER surgery but this is really cool. My Dr. doctors think I am interesting enough to get a story written on me. To make a long story short, a camera crew, well maybe not crew but they are going to meet me at a local park and do a story on me having gastric bypass. Not exactly sure what is going to happen tomorrow. I will probably write about it tomorrow. Oh and channel 11 in San Jose, San Francisco, and Oakland is doing the story. I don't get the channel hhmmmm oh well. take care

September 04, 2006

The finish line is in sight!

Okay okay I know I had an appointment on the 30th and here it is the 4th and I haven't written anything. I'M SORRY! Aside from it being the last pre-op appointment it really was uneventful. I went to see the physical therapist it was nice he showed me some exercises I can do to start off before and after surgery, gave me some papers in case I forget. Then we had about a hour before my appointment with Susan, so we just drove around. When we got to my appointment I was given some papers to fill out you know all the FINAL signatures, reading, initialing, etc, etc. I met a surgeon Dr. Dutta he was really nice explained everything to me, it was really nice to meet a surgeon :) Finally I saw Ning and she approved my vitamins we figured out a schedule on when to take them. God I can't believe I'm almost at the end of something I've wanted so badly, yet it's only the beginning of the journey. I've just been this way so long I'm ready for a fresh start, a new look at life. I never noticed anyone treat me differently because of my weight but I've never seen what they treated me if I was thin because I've never been there. I guess you can say I'm anxious to see. I'm anxious to see who will be my friend that wouldn't be before. Of course they won't be now anyway just want to see what will happen. I want to stop sleeping my CPAP everyday is getting harder and harder with it I'm probably just thinking about it to much. I wonder is the headaches will stop, I wonder how much better I will be at work, I wonder how I am going to change mentally will I? Will more confidence be mistaken as conceded and a bitch? I hope not. Will my relationship make it through all the changes that are about to happen? *I've been reading many stories saying that don't* God I'm just so excited and everyone around me is scared. I've had so much support through this whole beginning some support from very suprising places. I have not had any negativity looked down on me for making this decision maybe it is because I am a "child" who knows. Israel has been my rock through out the whole beginning when there were set backs that made me cry, he let me cry and told me it was going to be ok. When I would CONSTANTLY talk about he would never turn the other way and tell me to stop talking. I wanted to show him this and that he would look. Although he was only able to go to 1 appointment because of his job he was the first to call as soon as he got a chance to ask how it went and what was the next step. Being my boyfriend he has been great, and has been there for as much as he could, I know he will be there even after surgery because the journey doesn't stop after I'm home from the hospital it is only beginning. Thank you everyone that has supported me throughout this. I will have many questions and suggestions and thoughts after surgery so stick by me, please. This is going to be my last post before surgery. I am going to being my laptop to the hospital whether I use it or not is another story. Take care
Kylie

P.S.
Please give a moment of silence to Steve Irwin who has lost his life doing what he was born to do and keep Terri and their young children in your prayers.